Complexities & Dualities
Original Post Date: December 13, 2023
“Each day can apply a new lens. With that, you create experiences that can be lessons throughout every stage. ”
My high school English teacher introduced me to the phrase duality. It was one of the few words in our list of weekly vocabulary words.
Duality:
the quality or condition of being dual
or
an instance of opposition or contrast between two concepts or two aspects of something.
It became a constant feature in my written work because I resonated with its definition and felt it fit the complex nature of my teenage life.
My mind has gone everywhere trying to write this. I feel like.
I’m being pulled in a different direction when I begin writing. Ironic, huh? I’m discussing complexities and dualities but can’t settle on my delivery.
What I guess I’m trying to say is there is no perfect way to write or communicate a topic. I’d run ragged to find one avenue to reach every audience member.
I went to Thanksgiving overjoyed to meet the newest addition to our family but couldn’t help but think about the latest subtraction every time I looked at an empty chair.
I preach work-life balance but still find room to judge myself for taking time to just experience life.
I told myself I didn’t need closure but it wasn’t until it was right in front of my face that I could officially let go.
You made me feel a range of negative emotions but I still find in my heart to wish you well.
I’m young and single but have little interest in exploring a dating scene centered around appearances.
I love to journal but sometimes feels like too much to write.
I value my alone time and find so much peace in solitude but I’m craving intimacy.
I’m an open book but I still feel like no one understands.
I’m friendly, extroverted, and outgoing but struggle to make friends.
I want to find love but part of me can’t imagine letting go of the peace I’ve found in myself to risk it.
I feel the need to use my free time to follow my pursuits but find myself basking in the ability to be a little lazy.
I want to pour my energy into my needs, but not saving some for those who have supported me feels wrong.
If 2023 introduced me to anything it was understanding complexities. I’ve always known life was complicated. People preach about how it only gets harder.
My stubborn self thought I could find a way to eliminate the grey overlap. The truth is life events cause different emotions based on the period of your life. Furthermore, your feelings may change from last week to next month.
Each day can apply a new lens. With that, you create experiences that can be lessons throughout every stage.
Ultimately, we have to find comfort in the complexities of such an intricate process like life. Making the decisions that bring us peace and support for our growth.
With Love,
Allie
